i wonder why......

i wonder why every decision i make at some point of time feels so wrong.
i wonder why every feeling i experience always reminds me of a song.
i wonder why life doesnt seem to get ne better or ne worse.
n every gift that i have ever recieved at some point always feels like a curse.
have u ever wondered what it wud be like to live the life u know u can never live.
n u always have more to take than u can ever give.
what are the things u deserve.what things u dont.
have u ever wondered who decides that.
the most desireable things are the ones most unattainable.
if it is so,then what does desire mean?
sometimes i wonder why i always feel resposible bout some ppl for no reason.
yet im not ready to take resposibility.does that make me irresponsible?or just plain scared.
have u ever wondered what exactly are the things that make u cry?
is crying good or bad,i do not know.i do not wish to know.
i wonder why i always think of this crap wen it rains.but then everything changes with the weather.
but then again, most things dont.
pain,happiness,joy,laughter,touch.all this u feel from birth to death.
then what does growing mean?what does maturity mean if an 80 yr old man feels the same things a 10 yr old does?
very heavy stuff?i kno.so im gonna stop.

i read this a couple of weeks back:'there is no prison in the world that can bind a free spirit,n no spirit so free that it cannot be bound by the chains we cannot see.'

wingless but ready to fly.thats the irony of life.